accepting and unaccepting

there are mani times in life where we have to accept the unacceptable in life.
accept u seeking ur own happiness...
yet cant accept the love that wun hold,slowly disappearing...
accept that wateva we do muz speak the truth,yet cant accept the real truth...

actually i onli hope this world will still have some places that can accept mi.

....

from nw onwards the heart wun beat,sweat wun have any passion,meals wun have any taste,till the day i die full of regrets.

i realli hate hw well u noe me when i want to prove that its wrong..u will always be rite in the end...

wu zhuan

circumstances will always force ppl to reveal the "fake" side of him...
when u sae wat u wanted to sae i gave a depise look,wat i depise is actually my coldness to u..
i used to tink wateva u do was troublesome,but ur source of trouble comes from me..
this "fake" side actually will break open when touch,because in fornt of ur loved ones no matter who will be vulnerable.

insistence

the mani tins that we insist in are juz subconsciously lying to ourself.
insist that the tins i do meant well for u,but in actual fact juz lying to myself not regretful...
insist watever i do muz be a 100 marks but in actual fact is living under your judgement..

have i woken up from these insistence..?

will it be a miracle that woke mi up?
will it be the silent echos at nite?
or isit your leaving background??

what really wake mi up is your insistence to go and do what u believe in.
your insistence to find your true happiness..

the bus which i didnt manage to catch

the bus i tried to catch juz kip moving forward..human cant outrun bus isnt it..just 3 bustop and its gone...watching the bus leave its like watching sumtin in the bus leave..

sry mum if i ever speak to u in a harsh or impatient voice.i dont mean to.i noe its my fault.u were always there no matter wat.u always use wat u tin is the best ways to educate and make mi understand tins.i m glad i had ur protection for the past 22 years and counting..when i was down u were there to offer ur companion be it dinner or going out.i really appreciate it.the advices u give will always be on my mind. thank u mum.

my 9 yr buddy tried to "kill" mi in gym yst.wtf. lol jian si bu jiu meh...haha wat we sae few yrs ago almost came true.haha frens always have great influence towards us.be it good or bad.the decision to leave isnt always make by u alone.frends did influence u isnt it.mebe they had ur interest in heart.maybe....

我要控制我自己
不会让谁看见我哭泣
装作漠不关心你
不愿想起你
怪自己没有勇气

心痛得无法呼吸
找不到你留下的痕迹
眼睁睁的看着你
却无能为力
任你消失在
世界的尽头
找不到坚强的理由
再也感觉不到你的温柔
告诉我星空在那头
那里是否有尽头

心痛得无法呼吸
找不到昨天留下多痕迹
眼睁睁的看见你
却无能为力
任你消失在
世界的尽头

找不到坚强的理由
再也感觉不到你的温柔
告诉我星空在那头
那里是否有尽头
就向流星许个心愿
让你知道我爱你

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达

何必太悲哀
多少爱可以重来
上天的安排
事到如今
怎样去改
不要再期待
对自己坦白
为你跳进忘情苦海
死去再活来