YES ORD LOH! yeah orded liao.after 2 yrs battle won huh ahaha.time juz flies.
strange tat tho been waiting 4 tis dae like 4eva when the dae comes i didnt feel particularly happy or wat.juz wanted to get back ic and get the hell out of the camp.heh tho it does brings back wonderful (or not) memories.
yeah starting afresh everitin.wats past for tis 2 yrs shall remain behind.wats the point of holding on n making ownself suffer.i m sure time will tell.
双手紧握拳头 张开又留下什麽
敲响命运的钟 谁能带走伤痛活在被拉扯的时空
伤痕就这麽多 所以又代表什麽
等待适合的风 带我飞越尽头曾经脆弱 独自承受 伤痛
曾经爱过以后 心痛 放手 人总要学会软弱
曾经活著痛著 你也能轻松看透
我用我的无赖遮掩 谎言 从前 我太好骗
荒唐剧情 随时都会 上演
你用你的正义对抗 可怜 善变 虚伪的世界最后 被我 撕裂
你用你的正义对抗 这可怜虚伪 善变 破碎的夜狼狈 崩溃 颓废 天黑最后 被我 撕裂
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
020809
time passes so fast.unknowingly i been using tis blog for 2 yrs tho its juz random n emo post .lol.
it was a sudden shock when i c the number appear.i certainly didnt expect it to appear again.yes again.and yes i noe who u r hw can i 4get.u caught mi by surprise.even tho i find tat no. familiar i had to tink again which shows i m succeeding in 4geting who u r but yet u juz had to remind mi at tis time.i've trying so hard to 4get everitin abt u and telling myself u dun even exist.yes it mite sound so childish but different ppl had different ways of coping wif tins i tink for mi tat way works out.u nv failed to make my heart skip a beat whenever the mere mention of ur name or anitin related to u.
i m awaes trying ways to escape,avoid or convince myself u dun exist at all.in my foolish attempt to 4get tat the no. ever shown up i make a fool of myself drinking and making myself drunk and getting the worst hangover.implicating my poor frens who had to drag mi literally home and tolerate my vomiting.come to tink of it,it was a realli stupid attempt.but we all like doing tins on the spur of moment isnt it.
m awaes contradiciting myself,wld like to c u even 1 glance so much but yet on the other hand afraid to c u.i m nearly succeeding in 4getting who u r but u juz had to remind mi all over again.and yes the drink to 4get part is bullshit.u 4get for the moment but once u wake up everitin comes back.
till nw i still wonder if its a gd tin i didnt reply cos i dunno wat to sae.4give mi.
it was a sudden shock when i c the number appear.i certainly didnt expect it to appear again.yes again.and yes i noe who u r hw can i 4get.u caught mi by surprise.even tho i find tat no. familiar i had to tink again which shows i m succeeding in 4geting who u r but yet u juz had to remind mi at tis time.i've trying so hard to 4get everitin abt u and telling myself u dun even exist.yes it mite sound so childish but different ppl had different ways of coping wif tins i tink for mi tat way works out.u nv failed to make my heart skip a beat whenever the mere mention of ur name or anitin related to u.
i m awaes trying ways to escape,avoid or convince myself u dun exist at all.in my foolish attempt to 4get tat the no. ever shown up i make a fool of myself drinking and making myself drunk and getting the worst hangover.implicating my poor frens who had to drag mi literally home and tolerate my vomiting.come to tink of it,it was a realli stupid attempt.but we all like doing tins on the spur of moment isnt it.
m awaes contradiciting myself,wld like to c u even 1 glance so much but yet on the other hand afraid to c u.i m nearly succeeding in 4getting who u r but u juz had to remind mi all over again.and yes the drink to 4get part is bullshit.u 4get for the moment but once u wake up everitin comes back.
till nw i still wonder if its a gd tin i didnt reply cos i dunno wat to sae.4give mi.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
happy bdae
A very happy bdae to u even tho u may not get to see tis post..
The mere mention of ur name or pictures tat has u be it anywhere still bring a stop to my heart.even tho i have been trying means and way to escape or avoid the 1 tin tat will awaes be there is memories.memories tat consists of the gd and the bad.i may appear to have erase everitin abt u but i noe its impossible to do tat.
Heard from fren tat u had some obstacles recently but didnt dare to probe further.i noe u will awaes have a way out because u r a independent individual who nv bow down to difficulties.funny hw i awaes make u angry during ur bdaes tho i noe its my fault but still wen its mine u will awaes take the extra effort to do sumtin special.i was touched but didnt show u as i had tat stupid pride with me.my world came falling down wen we parted but i nv let u noe hw unbearable it is initially.as time goes by i tot slowly let it go and go by the "time heals everitin".till nw its gg to be 2 yrs since but still everitin seems like yesterday.so crystal clear.yet i m happy cos lessons are awaes meant to be learnt the hard way and indeed i have learnt so much from u. u deserve the happiness u work so hard to achieve n i believe u have it wif u now.
lastly,a very happi 21st bdae to u wingyin on 120688. cos u r still the lil princess and will awaes be to me.
The mere mention of ur name or pictures tat has u be it anywhere still bring a stop to my heart.even tho i have been trying means and way to escape or avoid the 1 tin tat will awaes be there is memories.memories tat consists of the gd and the bad.i may appear to have erase everitin abt u but i noe its impossible to do tat.
Heard from fren tat u had some obstacles recently but didnt dare to probe further.i noe u will awaes have a way out because u r a independent individual who nv bow down to difficulties.funny hw i awaes make u angry during ur bdaes tho i noe its my fault but still wen its mine u will awaes take the extra effort to do sumtin special.i was touched but didnt show u as i had tat stupid pride with me.my world came falling down wen we parted but i nv let u noe hw unbearable it is initially.as time goes by i tot slowly let it go and go by the "time heals everitin".till nw its gg to be 2 yrs since but still everitin seems like yesterday.so crystal clear.yet i m happy cos lessons are awaes meant to be learnt the hard way and indeed i have learnt so much from u. u deserve the happiness u work so hard to achieve n i believe u have it wif u now.
lastly,a very happi 21st bdae to u wingyin on 120688. cos u r still the lil princess and will awaes be to me.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
091108
Congrats! to... mr ling on ur ord in less than 24 hrs.haha bet u been waiting 4 tis dae 4 so so long.as usual been a great great help.understand u been thu the whole transition .tough on ya.i'll awaes rmb ur famous quote"yi nian hou de jin tian".nw is reli yi nian hou liao.lol. time for ur new course.CCC=civilian conversion course.1 u wld gladly look 4ward to.gd luck to any future endeavours.
Well...every beginning has an end.an sumone's ending will awaes be another's new beginning.wat started out as a mere juz for fun blog ended up being my tots for the past yr plus.the blog has served its purpose.its juz a barrier for my moving on towards.thus it will juz be memories.indeed tins dat i can properly express out will be penned down here. heh
on the other hand..thx abc lol.
its awaes nice to have a balance of everitin.slow down the pace n u will realise u miss so much tins tat u nv used to notice.all the lil small tins tat nv caught ur attention.life is too short to be wasted.even the small tins can juz meant so much.u mite nv know whose dae u r making a difference.
and yeah...a very thank u.to tat sumone. hope u feel the same too...=)
NiCkz kiM hUai rEn
signing off.
Well...every beginning has an end.an sumone's ending will awaes be another's new beginning.wat started out as a mere juz for fun blog ended up being my tots for the past yr plus.the blog has served its purpose.its juz a barrier for my moving on towards.thus it will juz be memories.indeed tins dat i can properly express out will be penned down here. heh
on the other hand..thx abc lol.
its awaes nice to have a balance of everitin.slow down the pace n u will realise u miss so much tins tat u nv used to notice.all the lil small tins tat nv caught ur attention.life is too short to be wasted.even the small tins can juz meant so much.u mite nv know whose dae u r making a difference.
and yeah...a very thank u.to tat sumone. hope u feel the same too...=)
NiCkz kiM hUai rEn
signing off.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
021108
everyday so mani ppl pass by u.yet hw mani is able to enter your life?we all meet different ppl at different time,the wrong person at the corect time or the rite person at the wrong time.so whats urs?guess its all abt timing.
i used to tink y sum tinks cant be sae directly.isnt it much more simpler if ppl juz sae wat they want directly instead of putting meaning in the words?wat if those who cant catch it juz miss sumtin which they mite ltr regret it?its a tough price to learn.
there are some who noe wat each other wants,wat they mean without too much words said but all tis is based thru years of understanding.but nt all are able to do tat even if they are ur closest.
i'm still paying for the mistake for the past yr.even till nw i still am nt able to understand wat it meant.guess tis is sumtin which no 1 will be able to teach.for every lesson there's bound to be teacher and student.yet there are sum who is able to learn their own.m stuck in tis lesson where the Q is juz too difficult to be solve.till i m able to solve by myself i wun be able to proceed to the next Q.
i didnt sae cos theres sumtin i wldnt wan to spoil.cos its sumtin i wldnt have dare to do in the past.wat caused the change is unknown but 1 tin is for certain u wld have sae i m crazy if i told u so.i can safetly sae it isnt cos of the voidness but mebe the story we went thru.even tho its different in some ways but i feel in some ways its similar.i wldnt wan to scare u either.
guess the gates of hell is beckoning me.till den.
i used to tink y sum tinks cant be sae directly.isnt it much more simpler if ppl juz sae wat they want directly instead of putting meaning in the words?wat if those who cant catch it juz miss sumtin which they mite ltr regret it?its a tough price to learn.
there are some who noe wat each other wants,wat they mean without too much words said but all tis is based thru years of understanding.but nt all are able to do tat even if they are ur closest.
i'm still paying for the mistake for the past yr.even till nw i still am nt able to understand wat it meant.guess tis is sumtin which no 1 will be able to teach.for every lesson there's bound to be teacher and student.yet there are sum who is able to learn their own.m stuck in tis lesson where the Q is juz too difficult to be solve.till i m able to solve by myself i wun be able to proceed to the next Q.
i didnt sae cos theres sumtin i wldnt wan to spoil.cos its sumtin i wldnt have dare to do in the past.wat caused the change is unknown but 1 tin is for certain u wld have sae i m crazy if i told u so.i can safetly sae it isnt cos of the voidness but mebe the story we went thru.even tho its different in some ways but i feel in some ways its similar.i wldnt wan to scare u either.
guess the gates of hell is beckoning me.till den.
Monday, October 27, 2008
271008
If good tins are to happen in threes...wheres the third?guess it wont be coming.
but unlucky streaks juz kip cuming...juz bring all at 1 go instead of one by one.theres awaes a limit to hw much 1 can take isnt it..
life's awaes contradiciting.no matter wat happen we are awaes taught to learn to have preserverance and nt to give up yet on the other hand,we are often told there are things we have to learn to let go.
guess theres no motivation to look 4ward to this wk.hell wk juz began.
oh ya.hey i m serious.not joking tat nite.heh.till then.
but unlucky streaks juz kip cuming...juz bring all at 1 go instead of one by one.theres awaes a limit to hw much 1 can take isnt it..
life's awaes contradiciting.no matter wat happen we are awaes taught to learn to have preserverance and nt to give up yet on the other hand,we are often told there are things we have to learn to let go.
guess theres no motivation to look 4ward to this wk.hell wk juz began.
oh ya.hey i m serious.not joking tat nite.heh.till then.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
261008
heh ..every tin kinda sucks nw..the food the work juz abt anitin.
pls do let me noe if i seem irritating to u cos i pretty look 4ward to the simple replying which will reli bring a smile to my face in hell.
on the other hand it pretty sux tho i was mentally prepared.guess its ur way of saying "no"?lol
pls do let me noe if i seem irritating to u cos i pretty look 4ward to the simple replying which will reli bring a smile to my face in hell.
on the other hand it pretty sux tho i was mentally prepared.guess its ur way of saying "no"?lol
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