now i understand...
y food always taste so delicious even if its juz a simple meal wif u
y every movements of yours had suck a great effect on mi
y i always look forward to ur every sms or calls
y i always feel the pain when u r sad
y i m happi whenever i c u smiling happily
y i can always slp smiling when u r nxt to me
y u wld always buy small gifts
y it pained me more than anitin else to watch u leave
y i muz learn to grow up

the many Ys which came too late..

when the sky pours

i have nv given up.
dont give up continue to work hard.
even if it realli appears i dun gib it a chase all tis wun matters animore.
no matter wat,i pray for the chance and time to be on my side.i just wan to prove that i have grown and am ready.even if by then its too late,i will just smile and wish u all the best.
in the end u r all that matter to me be it nw or in the future.


often the most important tins is always the 1 hardest to let go.i m letting go a lil at a time no because i have given up but because u deserve the best.not like the past which put u through turmoil.

ppl tend to tink a lot when they r alone,be it negative or postiive thots.no one can stay standing in the same place.y nt make a change for urself and fite for the tins that realli matters to u instead of just waiting for it to come back.

fate vs time

been few mths since last blog? lol last post was abt complaining abt army and all tat.well in a blink of eye pop and nw in sispec training.so much happen few tis few short months.the ups and downs..mebe no ups but def down.learn to grow up within tis period of time.coping wif new training.so called leader to be and the responsibilty.losing loved ones.much tins juz ran thru my mind.dont noe where to begin but it def ended.nv knew losing sumtin so impt and be so pain till u dun wanna hope its true and happening.dono what holds in the future.told myself nv to give up no matter hard it is,hw tough or wat lies ahead.but seeing tins in reality juz puts a different meaning to everitin.dun wanna face reality juz wanna live in my own world but in the end u juz had to accept the reality be it cruel or harsh.tats wat makes us grow isnt it.sumhow or rather u cant 4get sum1 completely..u juz learn to live w/o them.from being so depended on sum1 till suddenly u had to depend on urself.i truely admire how u cope wif it few yrs ago and y m i still stuck here.whenever i tink back i dono whether its sweet r bitter.you make mi grow up,thus i have u to thank for it.be it for myself or u.slowly wif u getting on wif ur new life i sincerely wish u all the best in the road ahead.i m glad our path crossed once and even tho it left u wif nitemare, i m truely regret for tins i done and tins i did not do.i m not escaping reality.its juz that i need the time to grow and learn to be a better man.be it through the hard way or so.i dun like leaving my life to fate but sumtimes i noe in life thee are just tins u cannot control.u r awaes on my mind and always will be.sumwhere at the corner of that place cor memories u will be there always.even tho action speaks lousder than words.i will pray by the time its not too late to fite for the 1 tins and only matters to me.all the promises we make tgt,be it 1 sided or not.i nv regret crossing path wif u.all the best to u.

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