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its been a yr plus since tis blog was cre8ted.from being juz a anoymous blog just created 4 fun to sumtin i pen down my thoughts.from last yr hungry ghost festival to this yr hungry ghost festival. been a long lunar year huh.haha.

currently been in army for mebe 11 mths? haa hw times flies.from a botak rec to nw.its been a long journey.no more trainee life hopefully.i awaes think back of the times through some hardship and luckily there was awaes gd frens to be there to share the hard traning and i m realli thankful for it.the 6 daes field camp where we werent allowed to bathe and crawl in the mud here and there.the times where me n my buddy would built our basha and think of ways hw to prevent our rifle from being stun.the times where we lie inside the basha and becos we cldnt slp and started sharing our problems.thx buddy for the listening ear.frens are part of our life but they cant possibly be there 4 u 24/7 and there will certainly be times u will wonder wat u r duin here and how r u gg to cope wif problems alone.i used to run awae from problems and didnt dare to face them.now i suppose i still do.

sometimes i wld think of u and start feeling ashame of myself.the way how i treated u in the past and mebe this is kharma i suppose.now that u have the best isnt it.i suppose so.so many chances yet i didnt know hw to cherish till it hit mi tat u r reli gone for gd.sumwhere in the corner of my heart ur space will awaes be untaken no matter by who.even tho i hate hw well u noe mi in the past,everitin u said abt mi was true but i juz dont wan to face it,dont dare to face it.dat u sae even if there was a last chance i wont do anitin abt it.i didnt know hw to defend myself tat its nt tat i didnt want the chance..guess its sumtin i guess nobody knows isnt it.its been quite a while isnt it i guess what they sae abt time healing all wound isnt exactly true.u juz learn to live with it.i used to struggle everynite when slping mebe i still do sumtimes but deep inside i sincerely wish u happiness mrs chan.

do take care.